Why am I here exactly? I go in and out of class ritually, nobody stays back for a short chat. It's a repetition and a series of college-like practices. Is this what college life is really about? Self discovery?
I come to believe that it is a phase (which some of us blessedly fortunate people could experience)where we are able to have a better understanding and placement of what we want in life. Like I questioned earlier, it's a self discovering journey.
No more spoon feeding like what you get back in high school. No more running home for comfort. No familiar culture or practices that will remind us of home - for some; ie being the only Malaysian around. No more petty thoughts.
This is real. This is here. It's time to pick ourselves up and find out our purpose in life.
When I was in the chapel yesterday, reflecting, I questioned God over and over again. What is my purpose on this Earth? Why haven't I got the clear directions or signs? Why are the things I'm experiencing happening to me? Why not someone else?
So I made a promise, to myself and to God. I'm going to spend a certain amount of time in the chapel each and everyday to reflect. To pray. To pray for the people around me. To pray for those I know and for those I've yet to get to know. To pray for the gift to appreciate everything that has been laid out in front of me. Really, I am sometimes annoyed with myself with complaining about certain things that has happened and is happening. I need to practice the ritual of appreciation a little more. We have the natural tendency to take things for granted. Don't. Or things will pass you by ever so quickly that you'll just lose grasp of it and regret it for the rest of your lives.
Pray. Keep your faith in mind. Be strong and believe.
I try to remind myself everyday that God has plans.
Things happens for a reason :)
Hope you'll have a blessed day there my friends!
with love, xx.
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